Am I the only Daydreamer here???

Have you ever created, written, or captured something, and all of a sudden you think to delete it? And boom mm… You erased it permanently! Since my early years, I've been doing these things in my life. When I was a kid, I like writing diaries and notepads. But after some time I wanted to throw away those written notes and journals. Sometimes, I cut off from people I don't like, or I don't want to be with, people who aren't good for me, so I try to drop them from my life. Similarly, since I'm using a cellphone, I've been deleting my data, old memories, my accounts, and restoring my cell phone again and again and I have no idea why? Why the hell I keep doing this? Making new email accounts constantly, deleting my important stuff? 3 years ago, I started writing a short story on Wattpad named 'The Key'. If you are interested in reading it, I'm giving the link just right below:

https://www.wattpad.com/story/123872096-the-key

And I deleted that account too!! I'm not a professional writer, I just write from time to time as a hobby. I wrote a few things on Wattpad but after some time, I deleted that account. And not only this, I have deleted my Instagram account too,😤which was full of book reviews I wrote there and I shouldn't have deleted it. Anyway, let bygones be bygones, I should take care in the future.

Now, as I started writing blog posts here, I've decided, I will never delete anything from now on. Because I should create and keep memories. Now the question arises here is WHY? Why I've been doing this?

It's because of my very own alternate world Yes, I'm a Mind-wanderer…

Am I the only person who desires to wander off by my very own inner world? Talk to myself in my head, always been thinking, get lost inside my own thoughts, fantasizing about stuff, and neglect the outside and real world. Yesss!! I'm one of those people, who used to sit in a class, blankly staring out of the window. Sometimes we need to get away from painful reality or regardless of the current scenario around us, we love to create a new reality in our mind, where we stay much towards the only world we like to be in. This is so tempting to me. I want to live and stay there once I get into it. I don't want to learn 'the way to become present'. Isn't it good to have your own inner world in which we are able to do anything we want to? Where we can play our future or destiny and the best thing is your ideal future, imagining your future experiences. You can imagine new adventures and roam freely. Like I want to travel the entire world. Europe and the USA are the destinations I always dream about.

I prefer to stay inside my house all day. Being a bed-time dreamer is so addictive to me. The best place where I'm able to wander freely, free from my society demands, where I'm open and let my spirit to flow. Reading a fictitious book and then immersing yourself in characters, activities like walking, exercising, listening to music, or watching clouds… All open the door to my imaginative sessions. In my daydreams, I usually think about restoring my life and this is the reason why I try to restore inanimate things which are actually in my own hands. But restoring life is not in our control.

Living in an imaginary world isn't always a great idea. Sometimes this stuff is a little disappointing. It makes us feel hopeless. Imagining a new world, situations, and tales over and over and then can't get what you want, could make you frustrated. Such people like me are a little shy, not so good at dwelling in present and stricken by social anxiety.